In approximately 5 hours time, I want to wake up and watch the sunrise. There is something totally unique and just...peaceful about the whole experience. Perhaps it is the stillness of the world, the crisp air, the sensational palette, or the sound of birds waking and calling their morning greetings down to us.
I am by no means a morning person, which means that I hardly ever get to experience this tranquility. I'm not really quite sure why I am doing this today. All I know is that I want to start this day with something enjoyable, something refreshing. Yesterday was not really a good day, and I can't even say why. I just did not feel happy for quite a bit of it. Tomorrow has its reasons for not shaping up to be a good day too. The first thing I have to deal with is a German listening test, which I haven't really studied for. I also have to worry about a music performance task that I'm not ready for either. (Which is not my fault, or anybody's, really.)
I'm sick of not being able to see around the things that make me unhappy. I have a great life mostly, but sometimes there are things, particularly assessment items, that are able to completely block any sense of pleasure and fun. This needs to change. This is my last year of school, and it needs to be the best one. Tomorrow, I am going to start taking initiative to work out the good things that happen each day, in order to cancel out the bad. I hope it goes well.
I found it kind of funny that a little while ago, it was raining.. Even if I can't see the sunrise, I will still be awake for it, to greet the new day. I need my attitude to change. I will not stop trying until it has.
Do you think it's important to evaluate your emotions and change aspects of you character that could be better? What is the first step to becoming a person that you like better?
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